I feel most comfortable when I’m pushing myself on a daily basis toward lofty goals. I sleep better at night knowing that I’ve taken a step further than what’s “comfortable” for me that day. Right now, things are starting to slow down and for the first time in years I’m allowing myself to soak in the resting, nesting, and reflection that this short period is providing for me.
My work with Crazy Sexy Life is winding down over the next couple weeks. Luckily, I’ll still be in writing cahoots with Kris Carr, so rather than closing a door, I’m focusing on my favorite part of the job. Less hours at work means more time for walks, cooking, cleaning, organizing, and figuring out what I want from this new chapter in life.
I met up with Tara Gentile this week for a coffee chat (she’s amazing-go to her website!) and she asked me what it was that I wanted out of my career moving forward. It seemed like a terrifying question, but as I continued talking it through with her, my true desires became very clear. It wasn’t easy saying them out loud because there’s that terrible part of my brain that has been telling me that I’m not “good enough” to pursue these goals. Now, I’m more focused than ever on making them a reality. Thanks, Tara!
As I clear out my physical space I’m making room for new positive beginnings to flow into my family and career worlds. Junk sitting around the house equals feeling internally suffocated. I don’t have all my ducks in a row, meaning that I don’t have a defined career path set up so that I can jump back in the saddle six weeks after Audrey arrives. But that’s okay. Again, Mr. Campbell’s words echo in my head:
“If you follow your bliss, doors will open for you that wouldn’t have opened for anyone else.”
I do have a few irons in the fire that I’m very excited about, but I’m waiting patiently to hear whether I’ll be given the red or green light. In the meantime, it’s more about putting one foot in front of the other with my writing, motherhood, and taking care of myself. The next (hopefully) six weeks are about allowing life to unfold without forcing it into what it “should” be.
xo,
Corinne
Photo credit: Matt McGee
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